Doing Just to Do

From what I've come to understand about Buddhism, one of the basic principles is to be in present, focus on the now, live in the moment, or something like that. But I've tried doing this and it is ridiculously hard to keep focused on what's happening right now. My mind always wanders to other things and, sadly enough, I lose what I was thinking about all together. -_-;; That's really frustrating. Having an uncontrolled mind is pretty crazy--it's about thirty billion things zooming through my head at the same time.

With the fact that I seem to not be able to do this laid out, I would like to say I can read just to read. And it seems to be the only way I can read. I really hate to fish for meaning in things I feel just aren't really there. I think I just take most books at face value and leave it at that. Most likely because most of the things I read are not something I want to read and I don't really care about them. Well, now...that clears things up for me. I don't feel so bad about not reading into these books anymore.

...On to other topics, I have to write a cultural analysis paper for my english class. For the past 2 weeks I've had absolutely no idea what to do it on. I think since all of my other papers so far have had a theme of Japan, I really wanted to find some way to tie that into this paper too. After a lot of not thinking about it, an idea popped into my head. There is a large anime culture in America. duh.. Why didn't I think of that earlier. I can just use that for my topic. But I need to come up with a good title. Then I need to think of some typical stereotypes and how they're wrong and other good stuff like that. meh! It sounds like work...or BS. One of those two, definately.

Oh! One last, small tangent here. Last night the TV was on and my roommate was watching Law and Order SVU. This episode was really quite scary. It was about neonazis and white supremists. These were the extreme of it though. If you weren't white, you were just trash. No jews, italians, blacks, hispanics, anything. Just white people. But what really gets me about this is how do they think that they are pure bred white people? Don't they realize they are mixed with something?? One made the following statement about Jews, "They are the offspring of Satan and Eve," roughly quoted there but that's the jist of it. I mean, if these people are going far enough to quote the bible like that wouldn't they realize that all man spawned from Adam and Eve in the garden of Eden and they are also descendants of Eve. -_-;; Bah! It's so scary to even think that people like that still exist. These people were so extreme and the words pouring out of their mouths were atrocious. I can't believe people can fall victim to such poor logic, while at the same time they are capable of being intelligent beings. Anyways...I think I'll stay away from this topic. It frightens me.