Home Again
I've been home for about 3 days now. I don't know what to make of it. It's nice to be around old friends, but home just isn't home for me anymore. Especially in state my house is in. No parents = no provider...and no place in the house to really call my own. I have no room! T.T So I haven't unpacked my stuff because it doesn't really have any where to go. It makes me sad at life. I just need to get my own place or something. But if my brother wasn't here, I don't know what I'd do with a whole house to myself. My parents would probably be happier if it was just me living in it though--I would take care of it better. I feel out of place here. Like I'm intruding on someone else's life, but that might not really be the case. So I'll just let it go. I'm still waiting to find out if I've been transfered by Target. XP So hard to get stuff done. I hope I do have work, it'll suck to have no money.
posted by ozguitar67 @ 12:28 PM
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yeah, the homeless feeling sucks >_<
well at least you don't have to worry about making ends meet this summer with rent and all. that's pretty good. and it's cool that you have time to pass with friends. hopefully cool stuff will come up for you to do and enjoy. i have many opposites of you of course...i have lots of food and a room, but...i don't have any friends at home... which makes the whole thing feel lonely and pointless...i always have to be doing something for someone, and i never feel like im enjoying myself. I have to worry about finding a job...and reteaching myself spanish this summer...not to mention my goal of hitting the tredmil everyday @.@...but i don't feel like i want to be here either...i would love to have a place of my own too...but rent just sucks mostly everywhere...i just don't earn enough $$ yet to support myself for that type of thing...
there are a lot of awkwardness in the transitional stage that involves being a college student. we can't really support ourselves fully yet...but usually want to move on past the home life we've had for so long. the freedom and opportunity of being independent and making a life for one's self is...something we all see in our near future... the family in the house has gotten used to our prensence being gone...and the "welcome home" attitude wears off fast. we ourselves might not feel used to being there...and surely some things, whatever the size or amount, have changed. maybe i'm speaking more for myself than for the greater whole..but that's my 2cents on it..
however, hopefully friends and friendly company will help let your time pass pleasantly for the time being.
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